Forgotten

While on the phone with an old friend of mine, I opened a box because I was getting ready for Thanksgiving and Christmas and what I call, winter cleaning and getting ready for a new year. So I go through everything and have it, organize and file whatever needs to be put away.

While talking to my friend on the phone, I started reading and asking what some of the terminologies were for these so-called hospitalizations I had in my hand. As we were talking, I paused and was shocked because the person these Doctors were talking to couldn't possibly be me. I told my friend about this document I had in my hand and told him that what he was reading had to be wrong, so I kept looking and looking and reading, but the more I read, the more in shock I became; to the point that tears started rolling down my cheeks.

I've said this before, having covid19 and losing my memory is something I deal with every day. But I feel so lucky to still be here and talking about this, while there are so many who are no longer with us because of this pandemic.

When I saw those hospitalizations and the diagnosis I couldn't continue reading. I felt like they were talking about someone who wasn't me. And to be perfectly honest, it really hurt; and then I realized and I said to myself… Mitzy, you are losing your memory and before you forget everything you have to write and that's why I share my life with the world without any reservations.

I'm not writing this out of pity. I'm writing to let everyone know that no matter what you're going through right now, what people might say to you that might bring you down, what illnesses you have, etc.

You need to have some ice cream and breathe and tell yourself everything will be okay without envying anything anyone has!

Live, laugh, do silly things, love unconditionally and do unto others what you would like them to do unto you. Love so that you are loved, give without expecting anything in return, learn to forgive, be thankful for being alive, don't complain and live happily...

Make your ice cream, breathe, meditate, change your vocabulary towards yourself, give yourself time to find yourself, and give your body a moment of relaxation when situations occur outside of your control. Go back to a place of peace...

Korean Mitzy